Contemplations – Thoughts – Action
It is really quite interesting. A few days ago I was beginning the process of formulating this post when I received the article, A Morning Reflection on Life from Ivan. Upon reading it I asked if I could share it, he said I could, and I published it as a guest blog post.
Interesting because I was contemplating having the title of this blog post Thoughts As We Near Life’s End. Not the morbid type of thoughts, but rather thinking of the processes we must consider as we get to the old age part of our lives.
As I get to the point where I am only a few short years away from completing my eight decade, new rules keep appearing as we, Kim and I, endeavour to carry on with our lives.
When I say rules, I am grouping together policies, practices, processes, procedures, requirements, and so on. You get the idea.
For instance, many people have observed that, as they age, they “are not as active as they used to be”. Aging will do that. (For me, I never was as active as I used to be.) Maybe we move slower, aren’t as flexible, can’t leap a curb in a single bound.
Perhaps this means that, when flying, sitting in basic economy does not make for a pleasant flight, but rather we must fly premium economy or (gasp) business class. This will, of course, bring a financial penalty.
Another aspect of traveling is travel insurance, particularly the health part. Boy oh boy, as we age, do the insurance companies really see you coming in this area. Within the last year we went to Malaysia and area for five months. Our medical travel insurance quote was twice our airfare and we flew premium economy. Holy dingle, that was a bit of a shock to the system.
Two of the important ingredients for traveling are the time and the wherewithal (i.e. money). As is the case with many folks, when we age we find we often have more time, albeit affected by the slower movements mentioned above. Also, as is the case with many folks, when we age we find we often have more wherewithal, albeit affected by the expenses referenced above.
Keeping these things in mind, I always recommend to young people that whenever they get a chance to travel, think seriously about taking it.
Another aspect of aging is our health. Here of course we are all different, but we may have medications, living aids, mobility supports, bionic parts, and so on. All of these factor in to how we live our lives and what we can do.
After reading what I have written thus far I see that maybe I got a wee bit off track with the travel part and got back to more general with the health part.
Really my original intention was to talk more about what I see or feel happening with me. So let’s try to stay on course.
For instance, I cry more.
Not just from sadness, but from emotion. Usually it’s the eyes get blurry type of crying, and on occasion, the cheeks are wet. When I was younger, the wet eye thing only happened on rare occasions. Perhaps due to the “real men don’t cry” mantra. Who knows.
Over the past number of years I have been to quite a few funerals. Sad occasions and I go to pay my respects and support my friends who have lost a family member. (Note: the frequency of this happening increases with age.) However recently the waterworks occurred when I felt the raw emotion coming from a friend who had lost her much beloved father.
I like to watch The Voice on YouTube, primarily The Voice Australia or The Voice UK. Curiously, not the whole show, just the blind auditions. The reason for the audition, the result, and the interaction with the judges, can, at times, result in emotional blurry eyes.
There are other things as well, movies, public events, books, but I think you get the idea.
So I cry more, and I don’t consider it a bad thing.
I have become more isolated.
This is something that I tend to do to myself and is the result of several factors. Often I feel that I really don’t want to be a bother or that I don’t have anything of value to contribute. I may reach out a few times, and when not receiving a response for whatever reason, will not reach out again. I consider this to be part of life. These days folks are kept extremely busy with the events of their own lives.
There is one exception to this however. Young people. I work/volunteer with groups of young people within my Kiwanis activities, and to me, that is one of the most important things I am involved with, outside of helping my family members. I will be doing a separate blog post regarding my activities in this area.
As I continue pondering on the composition of this blog post, I run up against the confounding complexity of my own grey matter. I have a number of projects set for myself, mostly with a common thread, yet constantly am frustrated by my ongoing inability to actually do them.
Recently I had a contact with a person I had initially met almost twenty years ago. She had posted on LinkedIn that she was having issues being active in her projects, and was pledging to try and address them. This struck a chord, being similar to what is happening with me. I immediately reached out to her (the old misery loves company thing). I thanked her for the post, telling her how it struck a chord and I was dealing with similar feelings. She suggested that I also make a pledge, and that we could work supporting each other.
Her words are part of the reason for this blog post, perhaps functioning like the proverbial “kick in the ass”, to get me going. Also there was an effect on me when I encountered her “putting it out there”, reminding me that often things are more easily dealt with when they are spoken out loud, and not just thoughts in the mind. When we say something out loud, even to ourselves, we hear what is said and it has a different effect rather than simply thinking it.
So… I mentioned that I have some projects set for myself, and you are likely wondering what they may be.
Basically, there are three projects, and each overlaps to a degree on one or both of the others.
Since I was young I have had an interest in my family history, even writing an essay on it for a school assignment about 1965. (My father had kept a copy of it, however after his death in 1992 it was not located in his files.) My interest continued and when my mother passed in 2012, she left a number of family albums. In early 2014 I created an account with Ancestry and over the years it has grown substantially. In addition to my personal interest, I like to pass the information discovered to other family members, near and distant, particularly those interested in our family legacy and connections.
Also since I was young I have been a prolific taker of photographs, and over the years have accumulated tens of thousands of prints, slides, and digital photos, going back to the mid 1960s. Added to that are the family photos (and movies), a great many of which were taken by my father, and a large amount of extended family photos taken by my grand parents and uncle which were passed to me through my cousin Jennifer (who is also studying our family history). As you can imagine, the majority of the family history photos are basically prints. Then there are my prints and slides. This give me the project of digitizing the prints and slides, having started over a dozen years ago. Part of the reasoning for this project is I figure photos and videos aren’t all that useful sitting in a box in the garage. My aim is to share them, put them in a place where people can see them. For that I utilize my Flickr site, having photos anyone can see, and areas for friend or family viewing.
I turn seventy-seven next month and have retired a number of times throughout my life. I retired from the military in 1990 (first retirement), and from my work in law enforcement in 2019 (last retirement). There were three or four in-between. I have had an online presence since the late 1980s and am quite active on social media since 2007, particularly Twitter and Facebook. Over the years I created accounts on several internet platforms and in late 2019 decided to put them all together when I created the Wee Internet Empire, my retirement project, of which this blog is part. You can follow the link to see what else is involved. As a result of events in my life I have thoughts, experiences, travels, that I would like to recount and share on my various platforms with those who are interested.
So… these are the three projects of which I speak. After seeing them together you can see the overlaps.
Now we come to the crux of the matter. As I noted previously, for the past couple of years I have been frustrated and upset with myself that not even one of these projects as moved forward in any substantive fashion. I’m sure I could come up with various “life happens” type reasons, however I know that the real reason is buried somewhere between my ears. Yes, I have had sparks, however they were quickly extinguished (unlike the wildfires the world is suffering from currently).
What is next?
“The time has come,” the Walrus said,
“To talk of many things:
Of shoes—and ships—and sealing-wax—
Of cabbages—and kings—
And why the sea is boiling hot—
And whether pigs have wings.” – (Excerpt from The Walrus and the Carpenter by Lewis Carroll)
Yes, the time has come, encouraged by my friend Felicia’s post, for me to say out loud to all of you that I will move past this grey matter doldrum and get at these projects with renewed sense of purpose.
It has been a few days since I started this blog post, there has been much thinking, I’ve read it aloud a number of times (almost like practicing a speech), and now it’s time to press “Publish” and send it out to you, my loyal readers.
Thanks for reading, I hope you found it interesting. As always, I appreciate any feedback or thoughts you may have, your comments are welcome. I invite you to share with others and also subscribe to my Wee Internet Empire newsletter if you have not already done so.
Until next time. Be well, look after yourself, look after others.





















